Blogging is something I've always liked to do, but never felt like I had the time to keep up with it. I'm hoping that since I'm finished with college now, maybe I can make it a more regular thing. I think it's healthy to write about your life, your feelings, and your adventures. It reminds you of where you've been and where you'd like to go.
It's funny how you can see your life heading a certain direction for an extended amount of time, and then in the blink of an eye, all that you thought you wanted is ripped away from you. I'm sitting here on my bed at my parents house as a college graduate who is currently unemployed and has no idea where she will even be living in the next month. As frightening as that sounds, I'm actually really excited by it. I've always loved spontaneity, and living my life from moment to moment with no real plans. And well, that's exactly what my life has become.
If you had asked me 6 months ago what my life was going to be like for the next year, you would have received a very different answer from what it currently is. I would have told you that I was going to graduate with my Bachelors Degree in December (at least that much actually happened), I was going to find a full-time job in January, I was going to get married in the spring/summer, and I was going to move to Korea in fall 2012 to teach English as a second language for at least a year. That was the plan, and I was overtly excited about it. I would be living in a place I loved, with the person I loved, doing something I loved. What could be better, right?
Here's where life like to throw a curve ball in your plans. Currently, I am single and have been for the last 3 months (no, it was not mutual), I'm not getting married anytime soon (if ever), I'm not going to teach english in Korea in the fall (although I would love to, I have to wait until it's my time), and I have no income to speak of yet. What happened to the beautiful life I was hoping for? Everything I wanted, I can't have anymore, and to be honest I don't know if I had ever been so depressed in my life.
Something I've come to realize in the last few months though, is that life is never how you plan it to be. The harder you try, the more different it will be from what you planned. For talking so much about how I don't like to have plans, I like to live spontaneously, and I want to follow my heart; there I was with a long list of plans, knowing exactly what I would be doing. I guess life has a funny way of giving you what you really want, even if you don't know it. I'm finally in a place where the sky is the limit. There is literally nothing tying me down anymore and I can do anything and everything I want to.
First on my list, I have always wanted to work on a cruise ship. I think it would be a fun experience, a great way to save money, and a great way to travel and see new places! I've applied to a recruiting company that hires for cruise ships, and if I get it, I will be boarding a ship at the end of January! If this idea falls through, I have the option of finding full time work either in Charlotte or Boone, and a place to live rent free. Another option I have if the cruise ship falls through, is moving back to Orlando and working for Disney again. The ultimate goal of all of these options is to save as much money as possible because.... wait for it.....
I am moving to LA with one of my best friends! It's something the two of us have always talked about since we were on tour in CA back in 2007, and now it's actually happening. We are both young, single, full of life, and there is no better time than now for something like this. Something we say constantly these days is: "No more excuses". Quit saying you would love to do this, or live there, just go do it! I know things get in the way like money and having a job, but my philosophy is if you really want it, you will find a way to make it work!
So my life goal for the next 6 months is to save money, save money, and save some more money. When I feel comfortable with the balance in my savings account, I'm going to put my resume out to anyone and everyone in the LA area. Once I get a job, it's bye bye NC and hello Pacific Coast!
I really cannot wait for this next season of my life. Whatever long hours and headaches I encounter on my journey to LA will be completely worth it when I get there. This is my time, and this is what I want, so I'm going to do it!
I will try to update my blog at least once a week. It's one of my new years resolutions.
Here's to breaking plans, living in the moment, and getting what you want out of life.
Cheers.
